Dear the younger me. Hi, it's me, your future-self.

I'm talking to yourself like what usually you do in front of the mirror practicing your talk before you meet your crush. Haha hear me out my 17-year-old-self, the things that you are gonna hear, you may not like it or you may like it, you may think I'm being tounge-in-cheek in this, but no, and so here it is. First thing first, I wanna say about self-love, and why you lack of it so badly?! Maybe you're still developing yourself, you know, it's normal for a teenager to feel that way, but if you ever think about growing yourself, you may try to act to give more effort to be a better you. So with that being said, I mean, you should just…….

Stop being insecure about yourself!!!! Aaaaaaaa I want to scratch my face out whenever I have a thought about it. Like stop being obsessed with someone who isn't that great. We both know who we are talking about. Please find a great role model, not by being their fame or beauty, but by their intellectual self, and what they do to make the world better place. Stop watching a reality tv show, turns out they're not that a real-real deal, basically those tv shows, it rots your brain. You should start to read books! Bruh! Maybe you read book from school, but guess what you never finish it! You always do that, never finishing stuff that you start. Even your old self still have a hardship at that thing. So start finishing stuff for once, ok?

Stop watching useless those cheesy-romantic movies. Once in a while is a-okay, but still. Speaking about romance. Gosh you are young, live in the moment. Why cry over some guy? Silly you, stop it. You are a strong independent woman, well you are not yet a woman, well a young woman. You are awesome, stop listening to what negative people says to heart, your heart is too good for that stuff.

Do not thinking so much, that's not your problem. I wish you are not that insecure and focus how to be perfect all the time, and trying to be yourself. Also, That dream that you have when you are about 14, maybe you could do some reflection on it, questions yourself and think, Will this dream make me happy? Will I be a good person or a bad one? Will this dream bring me joy? Will this dream that I want so bad, could help others?

Move on to the next one, let's talk about food. What are you thinking????? Eating only 500-calorie a day?!?! Are u nuts! Trust me, those diet advice that you find on article online, those are R-U-B-B-I-S-H. Don't listen to them. Listen to your tummy, I know your tummy is dancing of hunger right now. And Oh! Stop drinking so much water. Water does not make you full. In fact your panties are all wet because of that, and plus you are not a fish. Eat real food, Sekar! Pretty, please?

Oh now it brings me to my next thought, stop over exercising!!! Like what the hell, are you trying to be an athlete or a model or something? 3 hour of exercise? Well I tell you, exercise is important but not in a way you do, very excessively, plus you only get hmm 4 hours of sleep? That's why you can't think straight all the time.

Stop spending your time on Facebook. Stop fighting with your sister, she's like the best best friend that you would ever have, so stop being jealous of everything she does. Maybe she's cooler than you, but you know what I think you are cool too. So stop being hard about yourself. Oh and that best-friend you have? Maybe you should talk to her more, and find a time to be with her. Don't leave her for someone not worth fighting for. Oh and that guy friend you have? He's cute ;) You guys are always together wherever. I know you like him, maybe you have no idea how you feel because you don't know its real or not, but wth Sekar, life is short. Try to talk to him more, more about stuff, not just your stuff.

You may believe me or not, but You're awesome just the way you are. You don't need to change yourself because the things that society tells you. I know you always interested on a lot of stuff, so go for whatever your heart desire, after all you are young (well I'm still young too) and you have a long way to go. So, Be curious, wonder about things, and stay on your game and keep going for your dreams because the world needs that special gift that only you have.

Love,

Your Cute almost 21 y.o.-self.